CJSW funding drive!!!!!!

I donated. EVERYONE SHOULD. I donated too much but did get these.
Got the Cd.
Songs.
A ladies shirt, (or free gift).
New toque!
Sweater.... and another T-shirt I don't want to take a picture of right now.

Aaaannnnndd....

NHL tickets! I have never been to an NHL game and the tickets are for a Flames vs. Avalanche game. A division team and always a battling shootout. Kinda cool. Then I got them and found out the game is on my birthday. Give and get. CJSW!!!


Long grain curry rice chicken stuffed grilled peppers. mmm-mmm good.



I pulled my back today. It really hurts.

:: Ima Ride

Tomorrow Ima ride. I will ride till I taste blood. And then another hour. Tomorrow's Sunday. Tomorrow Ima ride.

:: Food

I've finally fixed my cutting board table up. It's a stand alone unit with knife holder and as of today...
It has a garbage chute. Fantastic.
Animal. Not for the squeamish.
Animal. I don't eat red meat often these days, but when I do, I do. Salmon and Chicken round out the week. Saturday my hangover gets the better of me.

A set. The clouds looked like the river of slime in Ghostbusters 2. Note the layer of pollution that sits on Calgary sometimes.

I got drunk last night. I'm going to do the same tonight. $9 triples. Gin and tonic.

Have a gintastic night.

:: Five, For One

Separate incidences.

Wine for one. It's not as delicious but you do get more.

I can hear you with my headphones on. But I will take them off. Just in case.

A lot of fat people drive cars. Mostly normal people ride bikes. Some fat people do too. They're my favorite.

Five sentences will do. To appease blod (the blog god of guilt). I'll make this one easy. You won't even see me. Cheat.

:: Restart

I get to push reset again. It's always a lot of work and always my favorite. Fresh starts. Do overs. Do agains. Do new too.

And I leave something behind. I leave the past so well. Too well. I'm quite good at it.

Recently restarted gaming (beside COD4, of course). As the sun goes down earlier so the console turns on sooner. Soon this place will become the gaming hub of Calgary. I'll show you place changes soon.

A. Trio ::
your voice like the sound of sirens
to a house on fire
you're saving me

everyday ends
absolute daily restart
some days are too short

Alkaline Trio

Mr. Chainsaw

When was it that you lost your youth or traded
It for something more for them to use so jaded
Why is it that you never said
I love you more than just a friend
I pray this gridlock never ends
And when we get there just depends
I found out recently that you are leaving
For good I hope I softly tell my ceiling
It's better now to be alive
Sleeping is my 9 to 5
I'm having nightmares all the time
Of running out of words that rhyme
Everything that you could never say
Would never matter anyway
I took a hammer and two nails to my eardrums long ago
Before that steak knife took my eyes
I looked up to the sky
For the last thing I would ever see
For the last time I'd cry
When was it that you sold your life or wasted
Every bite of that small slice you never tasted
I guess I should be one to talk
There's nights that I can't even walk
There's days I couldn't give a fuck
And in between is where I'm stuck
From blocks away I heard somebody screaming
That small child inside of you that you left bleeding
You stabbed him up not once but twice
Cubicles will now suffice
Some say it's the roll of the dice
I think they're wrong I know I'm right
Every breath that I could barely breathe
Could barely make it past my teeth
I took a blowtorch to both of my lungs a long long time ago
Every step that i could take
Every one more difficult to make
Mr. Chainsaw came and took my legs a long, long time ago
In case you're wondering
I'm singing about growing up about giving in
In case you're wondering we're singing about growing up
About giving up and giving in


The lyrics to every alkaline trio song are how I think and am.

From Wednesday to Friday work.
Building a wall of glass. It's a water feature in a Bell Canada building. Water will flow from the top to the bottom. Much easier than bottom to top.
These job almost always make me mad. This one was no exception. Done.... putting the glass in. Now we just have to silicone EVERY JOINT. Fuck off.
My colours have been great this year. How are yours?

hrm. Stuff's okay. I'm eating very well and -still- working out. It is so rewarding. No matter how my mind and spirit breaks down each day at least I know my body is getting stronger. Today I ran for 15 minutes, lifted some weights, then biked around the neighborhood like someone cute was watching. I had washed my hair and when I do that and then bike I get maximum volume. I look so silly.


Roomie is officially moving out next weekend. Not this one. I think it is only fair as the 15th is midweek. I tell ya. I'm excited like his leaving is me getting a Tyco Turbo Hammer for my birthday. I know what I'm getting and it only makes me more excited. Some time alone and a complete apartment overhaul. Fucking psyched.


Everyday ends
Every one ends alone
And that is okay

How It Works

A bit of fun.
Where the pen is on the working area is where the cursor appears on the screen. I missed photoshop. Never leave me again, phosho. Ever.

I think my problem is

What it takes to feel feelings.

Too much.
Too rare.
Too consuming.

It's takes collapse. It takes a cold cutting chill to my bones. It takes hard work and bad decisions. It takes other people.

It takes reaching the end and knowing I have to continue.

Everyday ends
To feel today is too much
I will continue

Recently I bought a new toy. I've thought about it for a while and finally in my mental collapse the other week I started spending money recklessly. It's the Bamboo FUN, by Wacom. Ultimately I am happy I got it. Best-buy didn't have the one I really wanted... which was more $$$.... but this one did come with a medium version of Photoshop and Painter which is a cheap way of getting the program.Trying to get out on Beema as much as I can before the weather turns for good. I went to the Big-rock. It makes beer so I took a picture of it. Other people came too so....
I flex my newfound Photoshop muscle. I still got it.
Some pics from a long weekend bikeride.
Calgary's drinking water.
Calgary's drinking boats.
Drinking shore.
This babe? Totally drunk.
She just came swimming right on over once I stopped on the shore. Somebody's been feeding the bears. Uh, ducks, I mean ducks. (This is a duck)

Maybe it was these fellows. This could be a good background pic eh? I barely caught it clean. Hopped off redbike and whipped out digi. Just got them before shoreline or things got in the way.